Things that piss me off as of now:

1. Being shut down. When people unreasonably insult you to no end, or vent all over you and then don't allow you to say anything in response. I have a mind, a soul. I have... reason. I have something to say. Does my input really not at all matter?

2. Stupid shit like this: "Is that a girl thing? I swear all women get so mad." Said by a condescending asshole who, in his new-found state of higher intelligence, doesn't realize just how ignorant he is. I'm sorry I tried to give you a taste of your own medicine. And yes, I'm overreacting. I'm a woman, we overreact to EVERYTHING.

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♣. nmL discovered Owl City and these is her favorite Owl City songs:

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♠. DBSK's New MV - "Mirotic" ((love this song!♥))

Had a FANTASTIC day. Yesterday. Today was... I don't know, normal? xD Doesn't matter anyway. YESTERDAY, I felt, was a good day.

Here's why:
I went out with "Lover". Now, technically, it was a date. But un-technically, it was NOT. We just hung out. We saw Tropic Thunder.

MORE LATER. lol G2GHOME!

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Sept. 24th.
I have the most unnecessarily dramatic life I know. Ha. And that, folks, is what makes EMO. In general. Blah.

Anyway, Tropic Thunder is HILARIOUS. I thought the first half of it was dumb, but it got better as it went along. xD Yea, so now, I'm a movie critic. xD

No, not really.

"Lover" and I talked a lot on Sunday, and it was good. We hadn't seen one another in four months... which is kind of ridiculous considering we're like.... BFFs&4L!!!lolololomigod!♥ It brought me back... to four months prior. lol But seriously, I was forgetting what it was like to be around him. Scary. Anywayssss.

Kaliah wants yaoi. And yaoi, Kaliah shall get.

Oh yea, MyImageHub is down. Read-only or some crap. Pisses me off that I didn't take all of my crap off of there the last time I had a chance. Haha, the curse of LAZY. As soon as it's back up (and it BETTER be), I'm getting everything off of there... and I'm sticking to Photobucket. xD (Can you believe I didn't trust Photobucket for a while? lol) I want my stuff back. *sob* Even my Gaia Journal is messed up. (There's supposed to be an image at the top...) Same here.

Yea, so I'm actually blogging for once.

Ajoo.

A good song ((41ce))? ♥♥ Yes. Mini-Se7en = Yes.

And finally, E=MC... You'll see. xDD (This guy is great.)

Ok, last one. I sware:

XD
You cannot NOT laugh having been to my xanga on this day. o_O

I would dump a post here about SHINee, but I refuse to do so.

This post will be ALL ABOUT CIANOPI.

You see, I've made half a new layout over there, and I just... I'm realizing I need to be more original.

My plan is to put all my sites in one. Which will be hard. But now that I own a USB flash drive, I'm set for life.

I'm also considering installing/trying out Wordpress, as opposed to CuteNews. I like CN though, it was easy to install, easy to get used to, and easy to edit. I just thought I'd try out wordpress to see how it works. (And how about those plugins, huh? =D)


RANDOM

You Should Be With an Earth Sign!

Your best match is a Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn                  Why? You like your guys to pamper, wine, and dine you Not that you're a gold digger, you just like the finer things An Earth Sign will go all out to woo you - and enjoy doing it And you'll never find a more trustworthy or loyal match!

WARNING: EXTREMELY DEPRESSED, ANGSTY, & EMO POST AHEAD.

// I shouldn't have done it. But if I hadn't done it, my thoughts would have killed me. //

I hate myself. I did the worst possible thing anyone could possibly do to another human being. I confessed love to a man I did not even know.

But see, it's hard to explain, you know, how it went about.

It all happened so quickly...

[I will enter the DETAILS here, later.♥

-- I was talking to the love of my life (aka: best friend), Safir. We were saying our final goodbye's-- I'm graduating next week! We were sort of alone, I was waiting for a few friends so that we could all catch the bus home. So Safir and I were talking, and standing my the entrance to the school library, and along comes Hubby. (The 'personal' nickname Hubby goes back to last year. If I explained it here, this would be my life story. And it's not.) He wanted to go into the library but it was closed. He decided to wait outside to see if anyone came. *sigh* At this point, an odd feeling comes over me. I'm standing between my love and my husband a guy that I've shared endless talks with and another whom I could not speak two words to. And at the time, I was very emotional. Safir tends to tease me when it comes to heart-felt situations because I usually never really show my emotions. lol That was almost an insignificant fact, but it's true. And it matters in that now, in this situation, I was emotionally vulnerable, meaning Hubby could have said or done anything to flip a switch in me.

What did he do? I was trying to get Safir to stay so that he would be around for a little longer, all the while exchanging looks with Hubby. Hubby knew this was the last time he would see me. Safir left for a moment to see what was talking my other friends so long. Hubby came up to me when we were alone, just he and I. I made a mistake, I turned away, I couldn't look at him, I... I panicked. My mind went berserk. //Is this really it?// Was that all that was going to happen between us after all of the moments we had? And with so much built-up tension between us...? I couldn't bare it.

The rest of my friends finally came along so that we could go home. We were all worried that we were going to miss the bus home, so we fled down the stairs by the library.. And I stopped when Safir said to me, "Well I guess this is it." And I looked at him. (I sware he wanted to see me cry.. He has no idea just how close I was to actually doing so.) I said, "Safir, stop." I was trying my best to be stern, but I was out of it now. Earlier, Safir had told me to 'stop being all depressed' and that.. we will see each other again. He had no idea what thoughts were running through my head though. It was just such a heavy moment in time. And I mean, at this point my friends are telling us to hurry up, so we go. But.. not before Hubby shows up again.

I had stood there, and waited for him to come down those stairs. I was not leaving until I saw him again. This was the final test. If Hubby came down those stairs, then I knew that he and I really had something. I knew that this wasn't just a game.. He came just in time.. This entire situation would have worked out much more conveniently, though, if we had only known the amount of time we had left in actuality. When my friends and I ran out to the bus-lot area, we were surprised to see that only about 4 buses had arrived so far. I couldn't believe it. I had missed the oppurtunity of a lifetime, and for what? And who knew how much time I would have before the buses began to pour in like they usually do. I had to make a choice. It was either sit and wait and think and worry and regret.. or go back and say something to this guy. My heart, I couldn't even feel it anymore. I was done with waiting and I was done with always regretting. On the same note, I am still me: the reserved, patient, careful me. Talk about a complex. I got overit. I handed off my crap to one of my friends and announced, "I have to go back." "Why?" hey all asked. "I have to confess love."]

[Jun. 25, 2008: From there, it's kind of a blur. I... blocked it out so that I could cope with it. Let's just say.. it was extremely awkward. And quick. And blurry.]

Anyway, I'm pretty sure he hates me now. And you know, let's say we never see one another again, he has something to remember me by... ahh... I am such an ASS!

How could I do something so STUPID?! *moan, groan* I mean, I should have just left it as it was! What kind of a DUMBASS goes and ruins what could be by not letting occur naturally?!!

My point in doing it was that.. I may actually never see this man again. The both of us, we are pessimists. (How do I know this? We've had our moments. He wanted so badly to say something to me, but he couldn't bare it. I could not live with that, I refused. Optimist in the works. ^^) So now, instead of basking in the glory of what happened, we'll kill ourselves (or at least I'll kill myself).

The look on his face.. the expression.. words cannot describe.

I just... I don't know. I wanted to puke. I want to puke now. I'm a fool, I deserve to feel like one.

Ha, his heart was probably beating twice as hard as mine was. He knew. // This is it. It's happening now. She'd really going to do it. //

Yeah. Had to get that off my chest. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ =D =D =D =D =D =D

You Are a Jigsaw Puzzle

You are a complex person, although at first glance you seem quite simple. Your personality is comprised of many interesting and distinct pieces. You are captivating and often visually interesting. You can be seen from many angles.

Your Vocabulary Score: C

Your vocabulary is average. You're not exactly a literature major, but no one's going to accuse you of being illiterate!

Your Gemstone Says...

You are simply joyful. You find it easy to have peace of mind. You tend to think positive thoughts. It's easy to control where your mind goes. You have great mental powers and self discipline. You are able to dream big. You definitely aren't afraid of failure.

Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! It's been a while since I've had something worthy to write about here! (That, and also, my ultra-high-speed computer crashed. So I lost everything of importance and went into a computer-file mourning phase.. hence neglecting my favorite personal blogging space, Xanga. Je suis desole.)

Anyway, I was cruising around the net (aka Anime News Network) for some info on a bishie-filled anime called "Koutetsu Sangokushi"-- (which I realized I already began watching on Veoh), when I stumbled upon seiyuu Mamoru Miyano (pic)'s page. I wanted to remind myself what other characters (than the obvious Light Yagami) that he played. Right at the top of the "Cast In" section (see here), "Antique Bakery (TV) as Eiji Kanda".

WHAAAAAT?!

I went to Google and found THIS. *_*_*_*_**_*_*_*_*_*_*_**_*_*___*_*_*_*_*

Justice prevails! I -knew- the manga -had- to go further. (I mean, there was also some live action version of it, but Ono wasn't gay. O.o wtf. i know.) But it's set to come out in July! Me so EXCITED!!!! &)#&(!^*#^)(!*#)*!@#

Oh yeah, go here and leave a tag. plzkthx♥. =D

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P.S. Happy Friday. And (for May 17th) Happy Birthday to EB, loml.*

>>Yes, You're In Love Yes, you've found a balance with him, you're comfortable  around him, and you can be yourself around him. That's really important and is a pretty good indicator that you're in love! Giving up really important things for him is important, too. Hopefully you won't be in that situation,but if you're not sure if he's worth sacrificing certain things, then you're not sure you really love him. Giving up your friends, though, is definitely NOT one of those things, so your ability to maintain your relationship with them is really great.<<


ADRIAN. ADRIAN. ADRIAN. ADRIAN. ADRIAN. ADRIAN. ADRIAN. ADRIAN.
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Adrian.

You Are 62% Passionate, 38% Compassionate

You are very passionate, especially when it comes to love. In fact, it's sometimes difficult for you to tell between love and lust. You jump in head first, and figure things out later... usually when it's all over!

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Never Date a Leo

Dramatic, egotistical, and emotional - a Leo is way too high maintenance for you! And forget about a quick fling with an alluring Leo. It's either everything or nothing with this sign! Instead try dating: Virgo, Capricorn, Pisces, or Cancer

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Your Hillbilly Name Is...

Lil' Daisy Rambler

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Who Should Paint You: Andy Warhol

You've got an interested edge that would be reflected in any portrait You don't need any fancy paint techniques to stand out from the crowd!

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